LOOKING UP

So new update!!!!

I joined a gym,
my bestest and I are working on getting healthy and fit! very excited, I can almost see the cute little outfits I will wear on stage once my body looks good in them!!!!!!!

Band is hard working towards our EP in January. That will be the high lite of the year for us!!!! so excited to work with the great Casey Lewis, and work on my Vocals!!!!! double triple tracking will be hard but I am up for the challenge!

Also I joined a chours, all women!!!! all in 4 part harmony!!!!! soooo much fun.
Has really been helping me with control as we all know that is where my short comings are.

I love to scream

well this will teach me how to keep my voice at a good control when needed and yet still have my burst out moments!!!!

The name is vocal motion how cute. love it, the director is awesome. Her name is Caroline and she is an inspirational women that admire very much :) I am so glad to have these people in my life to help feel strong in who I am.

No longer will I follow the crowd like a puppy ( wait was I ever a puppy or maybe just like people liking me)
hmmmm

anywho

thought I would give a small update.

until next time

love

KK

TRAPPED

TRAPPED
is how I feel

(RELEASE ME)



When you soul is trapped between the way that saves you, or the way that saves someone else.
Which do you choose.
Whose life is more important?
for selfish reasons I say my own
but who am I to say that mine is more,
who am I to say that my suffering is more


Trapped
is how I feel

Release me

NEWS in the last few months of 2010

SOOOO
Lots has Happened,

Band stuff.
We will be recording our very first EP in January!!!!!!! sooooo exciting!!!!!!!!
we have one more show left for the year November 13th... playing with a very Awesome band from Edmonton called Peribrotha!!!

We got T-shirts( on the left)
Also very exciting if any one wants one they are $15.00
And we Finally had our Show with TRUCK!!! and rocked the socks off everyone there!!! awesome crowd so glad we had that chance!

Personal life.
BORING......

JK

I love my life right now.. a little busy but I am happy with the people I have around me and the choices I have made.
I sure miss my dads side of the family a lot lately, after seeing some of them this summer, I wish I could fly out and see them every weekend.... SOON enough
Love you guys.

very exciting my older sister is pregnant after trying for 4 years, and having all the doctors tell her she would never bear children again..... Miracles happen everyday!

My husband is good... working away at the lab.. my little genius.
and my puppy is finally at a healthy weight. Lost 17 Lbs ( he was a fatty)


well just a short up date
pictures from the Truck Show will be posted shortly :)

Have a great week

kiss kiss
-K

REALIZATION

Is it worrying that it takes us all so long to realize that our health is more important then money?
We work to make money, To live. But then we don't LIVE, we stress over work we fret over paying bills, we are constantly trying to play catch up when really we are here to LIVE not to work.
When will we as a society come to the conclusion that we work more hours a year then not. WE spend more money a year then we have. WE are always trying to get that next thing that makes us better. WHY? why do possessions make us better?
Why does the amount of money we make set our worth in this world?
Why should we all be fighting over money... what is it really ... PAPER
I believe that in a perfect world we would not be controlled by our worth in dollars but by our worth in LIFE. We create life just to take it away. Why not create to improve, to relate, to transfer wisdom.

I know I am not the only one who feels this way, but how many will it take before the people in position to make a difference will.

has money always been the dominating power in our land? have we not lived at one point without? have we not survived and lived happily with treating each other with respect because that is what is right, not because that person can do something for you.....

I want to leave this place and create a world where money doesn't make us go round, but trade and service and good deeds help our people survive.

When will it be too late?

When will my health and your health be enough.

when will our happiness be the solution

WHEN will we learn!

I am not casting a stone or pointing a finger, I am to blame as much as the next.
I too am controlled by the bills I must pay and the things I want.

I would love for it not to be so but it is, and I can change that.... Only I can change me.
and only you can change you.

I hope one day I make it to a place of not having to battle with the dollar every day.
to the place where I am more important to me then riches.


Well that's all I really feel right now so I guess I will talk again soon, maybe on a happier note..

until then

K

And DONE

I have finally finished the lyrics for Deep Water..
I don't know if its a me thing or if its just a writer thing. I can't be pushed to write something, the more I feel pushed the more I feel nothing. This song took all my effort to write, I had to close my mind off to the world and just focus.... not something I do well. Anyway I did it its done I am proud of it.. I might change parts of it but every song is the same, they are never complete always evolving.

I started with the song being written on the base of finding out you have gone to far to complete your goal, but I ended up writing about finding what your looking for ( or who) and then realizing that this process is terrifying and dangerous. Now that you have found it you can't turn back you must face your fear. Let it take you to the other side.

I love writing almost more then singing lol ... I said almost

well on to the next song!!!!!! yeah new material to work with and RECORDING in January I am excited for that... I love to hear a finished project and listen to how good we sound recorded.

oh and hi to anyone who is reading :)

have a good weekend ... I know I will..

HELMET SHOW!!!!!!!!!

how our views change over the years... to think I would ever like hard rock and metal, haha
well all things are possible

-Kake

Loves hearing new music!!!!!!

My vocal coach introduced me to a new artist and I think I have found my new love.. lol

BRANDI CARLILE

AMAZING
that is all
listen to this song and you might just feel the same way

The Hair

And here it is :) love love love it!!!!!

I feel good... nananananana

Wow.
This summer although wet, has been awesome!
first
got to see my Grandma in BC miss her soo much all the time.. it was sooooo good to see her :)
then Songs are flowing out of me like water...
I love when this happens cause it releases all my pent up frustration.. so therapeutic for me. Who need shrinks when music is around.
Got some big shows coming up in September and October. YEAHHHH for shows.. if I could do a show every night I would.. it feels so right to be up on stage and performing. I know it was what I was born to do.
Found out yesterday that a girl my sister was friends with growing up just got signed to Def Jam records !!!!!!!!! I am so happy for her!!!! that would be an amazing experience to get that kind of back up on your dreams!

I hope that in my future this will happen but don't dwell on it.. if I meant to make it I will... and if not I will keep doing what I am doing, writing and singing my heart out!!!!!

I love life right now and just thought I would go on and on about it..


of got my hair done LOVE IT!!! my hair dresser is the best I love her....

I'll post pictures later.


anyway love you all

thanks for reading

K

Hello Life

So I got Lazy don't get mad :)
life has been a little crazy, work is busy, hubby an I are busy and well my band is busy. We are writing now and I love writing. Taking an emotion and telling an entire story based on this emotion. SO MUCH FUN,

I think I might write my next story based on a friends life story. Going through life never having met your father and then finding him and realizing that you can't just contact him because he has no idea you even exist. What a turmoil to put yourself through, the question presents itself. Do I contact him and flip his world upside down do I leave it be and be happy with the fact that I know who he is. Do I risk it all to get to know him, and maybe end up heart broken and rejected?

Wow so many questions, how does one person make this difficult decision.

I think this story will make an excellent song, focusing on the decision itself and the mind battling with itself, playing out the possible outcomes.

I'm excited!!!!!!!!!

but back to what we are writing now

Deep Water

I have my topic, I have my music, and I have my ideas, now getting them out on paper that is the hard part.
I don't have any ideas yet on how to pull my puzzle pieces together yet. I have a start, and end,, somewhat of a middle. no repeat, all narrative.

we will see how it goes, I tend to over think my writing. which sometimes can be a good thing, but some times, now being that time, that it stumps me for weeks or even months.

how do you write something you can't quite feel, I can almost feel it but there is an emotion missing or misplaced within the song that I can't wrap my head around.

well until I do it is pointless to dwell.


I guess I will talk again later.
bye for now :)

music I am listening to now is

Inside my eyes

my view on religion... I love God I devote my life to him. But I am not a slave to the rules and regulations of man who pretend to be GOD. I will follow the true God and only him!!!!!!
I am sick of people telling me I CANT do something because I believe... that is so far from the truth.
I can be and become anyone want I want to .
My belief system is my own, I don't need people to agree with me, I don't people to control me.
if I choose to do something it is because I have that right to CHOOSE.
I will not ever again become a slave to the men and women who believe they have the hand of God on them.

To all the people who have scorned me and ridiculed me for being me

YOU ARE NOT GOD
stop trying to reach heights you will never reach!

Thanks

"a little bit a rage"

Doing good!!!!

SOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!! for the show my band and I are playing tomorrow night...
this might sound a little funny but we are sharing a stage with someone I admire so much.. and people might not understand why but I just have never met anyone that admire as much.
Anyway I am extremely excited to play this show.. rock it out for a good cause and let go of some of my anger..
I always feel so relieved after a show like all my pent up anger and sadness, and guilt is just washed away.
I really believe that MUSIC is my saving grace. even though it can be hard, and dealing with all boys in my band can be tough. I don't think I could or would be as happy as I am if I didn't have music to release my emotion through.

This is Amazing, makes me fall in love with this song all over again


I wonder what would be a great cover?
what song would be GREAT.

Then I wonder ( even though I love what I do, and don't think i suit anything as well)
Could I sing deep powerhouse blues and jazz? could I pull that off...
am I a one trick pony or do I have many sides.
Then I speak to myself
"I believe I can conquer all things!!!!!!!!!!!"

Friends

I think I am finally realizing that the people I care most about are not who I think they are. I feel like I have constructed my own version of everyone in my life, and I turn a blind eye to anything that is not in my fairytale. Does this mean that I am not as close as I would like to believe to the people around me? or do I even know the people around me.
Sometimes I wonder why I have chosen these people to surround myself with.
I know I love and care for them all but do I really know who they are?
Then I start to wonder, do all people have this same issue? do we all put on a mask for our friends, and hide who we really are.
I think I act the same around everyone, but do I suppress my inner crazy to please people.
Do I control my own movements to complete an image?
All these questions and yet my life will continue to move forward I will still be and act the same around the same people.

No matter the reason I feel this way, it still makes me wonder. Will I ever really know anyone fully? know someone well enough that I know what makes them tick.
Someday

...............

ok away from the thought of the day.
I feel powerful today, like I can do anything!!!!! and I hope this will reflect in my writing, I am really in to power house women right now....
It makes me feel so empowered when I hear a female rock out with great vocals...
These women deserve respect and demand it and that is something I admire!!!!!

If only one day I could be one of these women, could help people get through a rough time, or get emotions out.

the song I am listening to right now is
Fighter


Such an amazing Voice!!!!!!

Went to the Stampede last night.... got a little .. ok a lot out of hand!!!!
I love this time of year when everyone is in party mode, the whole city wants to get rowdy!!!
I love it

anyway have a gooder :0

K

Wow already falling behind

Ok, so I thought I would blog more then I do, MY BAD..
but I am blogging now.
I found my best friends blog FINALLY took me forever and she even had to give it away. in the end I am glad I found it.
It is refreshing to know that we are on the same page with most things....the important one anyway.

So I was thinking this week, how many times have you heard someone talk about the reason they found love?
I wonder some times if people marry and "love" others just because it is what they think they should do.
example I love my husband because of who he is and how he makes me feel, not because he is going to make lots of money or is a pastor of a church and even believes in God.

I can love my husband no matter the differences we have because I love the person he is.

I admire a friend of mine for her confidence in herself, knowing that when she finds love then she will settle down. Not just get married cause its the next step. I will never understand the "idea" of love, the "idea" of marriage. Love the heart of someone not the makeup.

ok enough mushy

writing a new song... SOOO excited to get some new music going. it has been a while since we last wrote something as a band, and I miss the whole work together thing.
I like the songs we all bring in too but its not the same as when we all write it together.
(which means GARY needs to come home now lol)

I love Music..............

well now that I have to leave work I guess I should stop writing.
maybe after Jam I will have more to say :)

by for now

K

3 Dogs are better then 1

The weekend..

house sitting.....

IT WAS GREAT.... I wish I had three dogs around me all the time well except for when they get in trouble.

also went to watch a band I love this long weekend, 40 Gun Flagship.. very big fan..and very excited to get to play a show with them in July!

So all weekend my husband and I vegged out and watched TV, don't have cable at home so it was nice to finally get to watch some HBO...mmmm I love my true blood.

Watched this great show called Spartacus,

I have never watched a show in my whole life that had more references to penises then this one. Jupiter's cock I will. heheheehe but on a more blood and gore note it was great to watch men kick the crap out of each other and then bone the women they love. To watch all the deception and Glory, to envy the passion that secret lovers share. What a show I highly recommend this one.

Weekends like that are amazing ,quality husband and wife time in all our stink, and filth. There is nothing more satisfying then quality time to me, I am glad that sometimes we get to share a true moment of it.

then wehad the plessure to watch my little man, Bandit, make out with a dog we were watching, Mila, for like 2 hours. Really just like 2 teenagers would they were kissing with their tongues. it was a sight to behold for sure.

Well that was my weekend, TV , food, movies and quality time..

Until next time

:)

K

It's who you know

Hello everyone, and Anyone who will read this.
I figured, you know the best way to keep in touch and up to date is to Blog about it so....
I am going to start blogging.
Maybe some time soon I will get some of the other guys to blog too but until then :)
hope you enjoy

...
Thought of the day
I don't like how hard it is to get anywhere without knowing someone, I wish you could get by on talent alone, but alas in this industry its not always how you play its who you play with... hehe
Ok dirty minds apart
really I just feel like I am forced to mingle even when I don't feel up to it.
Don't get me wrong I LOVE meeting new people and learning new things, and if I didn't have music I would probably fall to pieces, but sometimes at the end of a show when your not at 100% health you really just want to go home and sleep.
I will always be an avid fan of the music industry and I am always broadening my local band list, I go to show I pay my dues.
sometimes I just want to be alone. Maybe its because I am around people every day of the week, at work and then after work, even on weekends we are either at my parents house or hubbies parents house. Even in our 2 bedroom townhouse I still feel just over peopled! lol
I say this and then leave me alone for 2 hours and I'm begging someone to come over and meet me for a raspberry ale.
I guess no one is ever really happy with their current surroundings... even when you are happy with most of it there is always something wrong.
sometimes I wish I could be my dog lol
He is always soooo Happy, just a pat on the head and he will always love you.....

oh well I will stop with my ranting, because I do love what I do and if I had the opportunity to take it to the next level you know I would jump on it, with out hesitation!

well bye for now
we will probably talk tomorrow
:)

Thanks again
K