Cancer

Well Life has gotten hard sorry for the long pause - I know some of my family enjoys reading these :) I love you guys !!! So in the time frame of one month we found out my 10 year old nephew has cancer and my sister has lupus and worse needs to go through chemo !!!!! My heart is melting into a pile at the bottom of my stomach. I love my family and this is tearing me apart!! luckily I have a wonderful new band ARBACHEIN the boys have been very supportive and are there when I need to write a sad song and get these emotions off my chest. Music has been my therapy and I thank god everyday for the people around me supporting me and helping me through this time in my life. The girl in my quartet have been very understanding and amazing to me :) I really am blessed with the family I have ( I love my music FAM) I can't help thinking everyday WHY - why him - why her - why our family - why not me? and the answer never shows itself, I'm sick of hearing people tell me things happen for a reason - give me one good reason a child has to go through cancer, I only ask for one. on a high note my little guy raised $55000 dollars towards cancer treatment and research!!!! I was so proud of him!!!! he was even on the news - I am one proud Aunt Well when I have more information about my band and my family I will share :) we are recording - soon you will have music to hear !!!!!!! Love to you all K

UP SIDE

All things have an upside :)
I am starting to understand that more and more every day.
my inspiration for the year has been Etta James, man she is one amazing women!!!!


A women that can sing like that!!!!! my aspiration would be half of that soul!!!!!

I am finally venturing out into the music scene trying to find my nich,
I love blues I love rock, I LOVE different, but now its time to step up my game.... start doing what makes me happy and not what I think I should do.
Happiness is always only a step in the direction.

I am writing a song now, that has been on my mind for over 5 years. It has taken me FIVE years to release these feelings and it feels so good.
The person this song is about was very dear to me and a huge part of my life, but all things happen for a reason and this one is no exception.

short and sweet I will keeep updating later today :)

KAKE!!!!

Good days and Bad, Today is Bad

I ask myself today, Do the friendships I have mean so much to me that I put all the effort in with no return and just deal with it?
Or do I say good bye and live with the fact that eventually the people I need in life will show when they are meant to?
I feel empty , hurt and neglected. I also feel needy and weak and confused.
I am usually a very strong person, I am usually able to keep myself content. and yet I feel ALONE.
Why is it that we as people have the need to feel wanted?
I have a husband who loves me and a family who will always stick by me, why do I feel I need more.
This is depressing I know... not like me.... but right at this very moment in time. I need to let this out. I need to let out the bad energy growing inside.

this song is a gooder for me right now'

Sorry for the Downer just needed to vent ;)

Till next time

Kake

Going Forward

EP RELEASE DONE
YEAHHHHHHH if you have yet to download it make sure you head to our website and get your free copy www.cranialcollide.com

Photos turned out Fantastic I am very happy with how the infrared turned out
Let me know what you think :)

Ep name surrealevance LOVE IT
I am very proud of my boys and myself!!!!! we worked very hard to make this happen..

Life front good, happy wit hubby :) love him to death.

busy at work like always..... oh well

Chorus is good, a little more time consuming then I wanted, but for right now it totally works for me...


OHHHH EXCITING , I am working on a new song with my voice coach
Think of me from the Phantom of the Opera
SOOOOO EXCITING, I can finally work on songs that 3 years ago I only dreamed of!!!! such a good feeling to accomplish so much vocally.



Anyway small update I guess but it was overdue so until next time :)

All Things Collide

WOW what a start to the New year !
Busy, Busy, Busy all the time and I'm not complaining but WOW.
So stuff happening with the band !!!

Just finished recording our new EP !!!!!!! GET EXCITED !!!!!!!
First song released Deep Water, we are very proud of that song!

Ep release show will be February 25th at the Distillery, Truck will be joining us on stage to get the rocking started!

Photo shoot tomorrow very excited to see the outcome. Always like to express ourselves through imagery.

On a more personal note, I think this is the time in my life when I find out who I really am.. My journey is taking lots of twists and turns.
Usually a very optimistic person I find myself in very negative positions as of late. Job, band, husband I think the problem I am having is the lack of Women in my life.

I AM SURROUNDED by MEN!!!

To fix that I joined a chorus and it has been WONDERFUL..
The women I am getting to meet have inspired me beyond anything I could have ever imagined.

you know the asshole committee in your head telling you " you can't do it as good as her, you will never make it to your goal" well committee F-U!

I'm going to push harder then ever before.
which brings me to my next point.

I need to find someone with exceptional piano skills.
To help me write the music to my songs
- I might just have the right person in mind!

Then I need to find a producer I trust to record my demo songs!
- could be an easy or hard task!

this is my step in the right direction towards my goals!

Oh yeah side note LOVE this new direction of Rihanna.... DIRRTY




Anyway so that is a short update!

again have a great next 2 weeks and HAPPY V-DAY coming up :)


Love
Kayla